Hello friends! It has been awhile since I last posted. This post has been in draft for the last couple of months. This blog was set up to give you updates on my treatments. Well my last treatment was on February 8th. As usual on the day before chemo I have bloodwork and then an appointment with Dr. Nadia Califaretti. She is my oncologist in Kitchener. Our chat was much like the one I had with Dr. Bertrand. Very positive in terms of prognosis but of course no one is giving any guarantees. Where in life do you get guarantees anyhow?
Last chemo treatment went as usual without any hiccups. The staff even gave me a certificate of completion! So funny...
In the time since February 8th I have had mixed feelings. One the one hand I am certainly happy! No more getting jabbed in the arm with an IV and sitting or laying around for 6 hours. No more having to start taking meds 2 days before and up to 7 days later. Some of them make me a bit loopy (more than usual). But it also means I cannot drive or operate heavy machinery ( this is my excuse for not vacuuming :) ).
On the other hand I feel a bit high and dry. I couldn't articulate this earlier because I had mixed feelings after the last and final treatment. During treatment you are on a course of action. I knew exactly what to do, where to go, who to see, etc. Now I am on my own and I need to make my own way. Does this sound like life or what?
What do we know of our own mortality? We must live one day at a time and make the most of what we have. Plans for the future should be made and anticipated. We should not take anything for granted.
